I don’t know why I’m so peaceful right now. I have an exam tomorrow afternoon that I barely studied for. I should be stressed out and prepared to fail, right?
Instead, I’m accepting that I screwed up, had too many nights out late rather than studying, and if I fail, I’ll just have to work harder for the next few months. It’s really not a big deal. There’s nothing else I can do, besides sleep deprivation by staying up and studying… but that’s worse for me, I think.
I used to get like this all the time. Don’t study, fail exam, fuck it. Maybe I’m alright today because I know where I can change my behaviors. Last semester was hell. I thought I was going to fail everything, so I did as much work as I could toward the end… And I ended up with the best grades I could’ve hoped for. I know I can do this. Tomorrow is just another day, just another exam. I have 2 more chances to make up for it. Who knows, maybe I’ll get a decent grade. Gotta love multiple choice.
I don’t know why, when nothing crazy is going on, I slack off. Last semester, seriously, shit hit the fan. I don’t know how I managed, but I did. I give myself hope haha.
Constant communication with God and my network – that’s how I managed.
