OK so I’m taking the plunge… I spoke to my counselor, and within a few minutes, she was on the phone with someone to transfer the grant money to pay for my room in the house. EEP!

I don’t know why but yesterday, I had a lot of anxiety about it. What if I hate it there? Maybe the people won’t like me? What if I don’t find friends as awesome as the ones I have at home? Totally irrational fears because none of that really matters if I focus on each day individually. Right now, I’m just going through the steps to move in, I’m not even there yet! Why am I worrying so much?? Also what’s cool and what I’m grateful for is that everyone is being so supportive of me. No one thinks it’s a bad idea. Mainly because it’s a very healthy decision and people would like to see me move forward. So would I… I just hope this is the right way to do it. I don’t see why it wouldn’t be.

I spoke to the store manager at work about it, and I could transfer to the store near school. I’m keeping my schedule here the way it is for a while, end of semester, then I’ll think about transferring stores. One of the regional managers was there today, and she said to keep communicating with my manager about it because she’s the one that will have to sign off on it and such. So that’s pretty cool, I’ll still have a job… My manager also had a talk with me about how I’m not getting a raise and blamed it on the economy and how the store hasn’t been making much money. So only a few people will get raises..? I’m not sure. But I feel like it’s because I’m not the most enthusiastic salesperson. Which kinda sucks, but I accept it because… it’s the truth! I HATE walking up to people and trying to sell crap… I hate when people do it to me at stores, and I feel uncomfortable doing it as my job. But, that’s the job and I’m gradually forcing myself to talk with customers and I’m playing with and looking at the product we sell. So I know what I’m selling…

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